Nothing to serious

I'm trying to turn my worry, anxiety, stress, frustration, disappointment, lingering thoughts, and sadness(you get the point right), in to worship.

What is worship?
Worship is loving the Lord YOUR God with all your heart, soul, mind, and strength.

I'm a simple man so I simply say that I can not go on another day without Him.

Jesus I pray that this would help me and help whoever reads this.

I pray that You would overwhelm me with your love.
That You would truly suffocate me with a joyous despair.
That You would rid me of myelf, of my sinful ways.
God, I am a sinner that needs the grace of Your Son Jesus.
You are Holy and You are righteous, I need all that You are.
Humble me and guide me in Your will and love.
I want You, so please Lord, meet me where I am.
I trust You. My faith is in You.

In Your name we pray, Amen.

So for the first time in a while I've actually had a desire to write. OK. I totally wrote like a paragraph and erased it all because I was just straight up venting. WELL isn't this my blog? Aren't I allowed too?

Frick.

I just want to scream and go crazy and just punch a very very soft pillow because of everything that has been going on. Call me crazy, but that's how much I love my youth kids. I'll swallow everything I've said. As a leader I'm going to go through some joys, but I'm going to go through some pain and I have to learn how to endure.

I feel like alot has been "PINNED" against the leaders for earlier actions that somehow managed to continue even though we are not doing it any longer.

Let me explain.

We use to go out to eat every Friday night after church because it just felt right. Full cars, empty stomachs, great experience during church, time to talk and not worry about anything. Just being able to relate with everyone one on one, break bread, talk, laugh, and to just have a great time. FUN RIGHT?
Wrong.

The downfall of this was kids getting home past 12 or 1 o clock.

We understand what we did was not just, therefore we stopped doing the whole "applebees" thing so we can respect the parents wishes and concerns. Once my dad got involved I then realized how serious everything was. So I listened to him and I took everyone home right after church was over. Now it just seems that now if someone comes home late or doesn't respond to their parents requests, blame is immediately put on us.

The reason why I write this is so I can explain to everyone why we can't and how much I wish we could.

I preach transparency.

Honestly I cried today out of frustration because no one wants to acknowledge the fact that myself, Ji-Soo, and Josh are trying our fricking hardest to help build a ministry. There are those who support us 100%, but what got to me the most is my parents said something to me that rattled me.

My parents have always supported me, ALWAYS. I don't blame them because everyone is confronting them about the situations of the past, and not me. But when my parents can't even put 100% faith in me and what I'm doing, I really feel like crap. When they say", Why can't I just respect parents wishes", it honestly frustrates me..

I'm not responsible for miscommunication, bad parenting, or lack of responsibility.
and I'm also not responsible for what any youth kid does after church.

So I'll say this again.

I preach transparency.

Please, if you go out, do not associate the word "church" with you guys hanging out. Please it has gotten to a point where we can't be trusted with what we do as leaders.

I speak out of my heart and I speak with love.
This needs to stop, please obey your parents.

I warned you. Hopefully my next post will be more happier! (=

Miracles

Originally I wrote this on July 18th, and now it gets published. It's not everything in my brain, but it gets to the point across.

So recently I've been thinking a lot about miracles. The power behind them. The meaning behind them. I've seen my fair share of God's glory. But why can't we be like Jesus himself and the disciples? Aren't we striving to be like him? Is it a lack of faith that we can't do what they did? I've prayed for people and most of them didn't get healed. Why didn't they get healed? Why doesn't Jesus just grant us that favor and whomever we pray for we get healed? Then do we become big headed? Pride?





Brotha..Sista..look in the mirror. Understand that you are a miracle. God has kept you breathing for this long. Go out and make a difference in this world. Set an example and be change.

Power of ONE

The power of one. Have you ever thought about it? One person could change this world. One person could influence your life. One moment could make or break you. One is better than none.

There was this One man who influenced and continues to influence my life. His name was Jesus. I'm gonna be One person to influence this generation. One can turn into hundreds that can turn into thousands that can turn into millions. One can be the difference.

You can be that ONE.

For Pastor Jay Morgan. One who wanted a nice meaningful blog. One who's going to shake and break. You're welcome.